Well I survived the weekend with most of my weekly points intact! The last few weeks have been in the red by quite a bit, so this is good! Hubby worked all weekend again, so I was home with the kiddies and purposefully avoided all social gatherings, lol! I really wanted to avoid temptation, and I have a ton of stuff around the house to do! 4 plus hours of toy sorting and laundry sorting and folding yesterday,
I’ve lost the 4 pounds I gained after last weekend on the home scale, so my weigh in should be exciting this week! I’m aiming to go down a bit more too. We’ll see.
Having a good, on plan weekend has me thinking. At the beginning of the summer I said that my goal was to maintain for the summer, enjoy it. And I do want to enjoy the summer. But that gain of 4 pounds last week really messed me up. I don’t want to binge and lose, binge and lose all summer! That and I’m so freaking, g%$ damn close to goal!!! Seriously, had I buckled down and set my mind to it, I’d freaking be there already! Today I weigh the same as I did 2 months ago only days after my surgery. I’m still up 5 lbs from pre surgery. Really, had I not gone off plan while I was recovering, I’d be at goal now.
I’m really pissed at myself for barely following the plan the past 2 months. I lost almost 90 pounds. I can freaking lose 10! I’ve been frequenting the Success stories board on My Fitness Pal a lot lately, something I used to do a lot when I was actively losing, I really want to post mine!
So I’m really going to try harder. Even with weight training there’s no reason why my weight shouldn’t drop. When I’m on plan I still lose, when I half ass it I don’t. Really it’s not that it’s hard to lose at this weight, it’s that I’m not really into it. The past 4 days I’ve lost 4 pounds. Because I’ve been on plan! Drinking my water, exercising, fueling my body. See? It works!
So I’m going to bite the bullet. No more bingeing on the weekends, my first 2 summers losing I avoided temptation at social gatherings, I can indulge a little and maintain when I hit goal. I’m going to lose this last 12.8 pounds (stupid 4 pound gain!). Seriously. I just need to do it!
Fuck it! I’m going for a walk!!!
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