Wednesday, December 30, 2015

In with the old...

The past year has been a tough one. But amazingly mundane at the same time. 

We started by living apart while my husband travelled for work.
I started having severe pain issues and my health started to decline.
I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain Syndrome.
We moved again into our dream house (that needs work).
We went through financial hardship when my husband got laid off. 
I had to pick up a second job to make ends meet.  
He found a good job, but had to leave again.  
Now we're paying for two households.

Ahh.  Enough of that. 

So, The good things that have happened. 

We have two wonderful, healthy girls. I have a diagnosis, with meds that actually help. 
I have two amazing jobs. 
My husband and I are still deliriously in love. 
With him home not working, he got to spend the summer home with his girls in this amazing place we call home. In our own in ground pool. 
We live in the most beautiful place on earth, The Okanagan Valley.
We have a dream house that we can fix up the way we want.
We have a financial plan.
My husband finally has his dream job and has now done over half of his stint away from home.
My mental health is much better and I'm better than I've been in years.

And so much more.

Life is nowhere near the same. 

I've gained back all but 10 pounds of what I lost "before". And instead of dwelling on the fact that I've gained so much, I'm working on letting that go and start again. 

My health isn't the same and my mental health is different than before, so I need a new plan.  One day at a time.  I can't go gangbusters, but every little bit will add up.

I've lost count how many times I've restarted Weight Watchers over the past couple of years and I don't know why I keep struggling with that, with the exception that I don't have my sisters here to attend with me. I really want to start again, I KNOW the program works for me, I just need to stick to it!  

I know it's cliché, but isn't that the case with anyone with weight to lose?  I have a plan for 2016...