Saturday, August 11, 2018

7 weeks in

I've been on this latest weight loss streak for 7 weeks now!  I think that's a record!

I'm down 8.5 lbs, averaging 1.2 lbs a week. I've not been good the whole time, but I have stuck to Weight Watchers meetings, only missing it on the weeks I have to work Wednesdays.

At first I changed a few habits.

I changed my 2 pints of cider a day habit to gin and slimline tonic, with lots of lime juice (real lime, not lime cordial), then finding I like just plain tonic with lime and I don't even really miss the gin!

Cut way down on bedtime snacking, and making more of an effort to eat breakfast.

I also started weighing myself daily at home again.  Now I know that's not recommended, but when I lost 89 lbs back in 2012-2013, I weighed myself each and every day, so if it didn't derail me then, it won't now!

And I started paying attention to the pedometer on my phone, lol! Hopefully I can get a fitbit or something, but for now, I can't really afford it. But really, what will it do for me. Nothing at this point. I'll probably forego one entirely and spend the money on weights, my true fitness love is Weightlifting!

I've started in the last 2-3 weeks paying more attention to the food I buy, more fruit and veg, more from scratch meals, planning ahead etc..

Now as a side effect of these changes, my husband hasn't had his drinking and snacking buddy, so he's drinking and snacking less, and he and the kids are snacking on fruit and veg more, since it's there and handy, so of course he's lost close to 20 lbs!

Sunday, July 29, 2018


Weight Watchers Flex is the easiest plan yet.

They have totally revamped the plan and have given us a list of 0 point foods. Making it easier to make healthy choices.

The list includes;

• Most vegetables  
• Most fruit
• Eggs
• Skinless chicken and turkey breast
• Plant-based proteins like beans, peas, tofu, lentils and corn
• Fat-free plain yogurt
• All unsmoked fish and shellfish

Of course, if you add anything or cook in anything with a points value, that must be tracked and counted.

They still give you daily points allowance, but you no longer have to reach it, the points are designed to supplement, while you fill up from the zero points list.

For me who has struggled with the brain power for tracking, this makes it easy. I still struggle, but I'm taking it one day at a time, and this journey is ongoing. As long as my weight is trending down over time, I'm happy.

Wednesday, June 20, 2018

Went to a meeting

I went to a Weight Watchers meeting on my way home from walking the girls to school this morning.  I've been sick for a few weeks with Asthma and Pneumonia, and the walk there is pretty much all up hill, especially for this morbidly obese person on any normal day. But with the help of my ventolin, I managed it just fine. Then remembering it was Wednesday and meeting started at 9, I walked there instead of home!

Having obviously not been paying any attention to what I'm eating the past couple of months since my last restart, I was up . Weighing in at 18 stone 1.5 lbs. Or 253.4 lbs. Up 2.2 lbs from when I last attended in January. Could have been a lot worse...

It was a good meeting, Sharnie my leader is very motivating and a couple of her helpers in the group met some big milestones, pointing out they've lost quite a bit since Sharnie took over the meetings in January. I think if I can keep myself going to the meetings, I'll do well.  It has sucked not having my sisters at the meetings to push me to keep going, hopefully I'll meet some friends that will keep me accountable.

I'll be updating my blog a bit, mostly the weight record, re-setting goals and new before photos. 

Sunday, April 8, 2018

I've come back to this blog as I spent so many hours on here, organizing, writing lists, tracking my weight loss, and succeeding at losing weight. I've started numerous blogs over the last few years hoping to get back to it, but just haven't. My motivation left me years ago.

This is me. Was me. Can be me. 

When I was "feeling" my best. I want to be like this again. Minus the internal outrage, depression, chaos, body dysmorphism, struggle, sadness. I read back in the weeks before this and I can really see a trend, Thank God I'm not there anymore!

I felt fat. I was in a size 8-10, but all I saw was my gross fat belly. The biggest part of me. 

Now I'm almost 40, morbidly obese with chronic pain and what I'm told is"Fibromyalgia", always thinking about my weight, always planning, starting programs, never staying with them.  With 40 only 9 months away, I do not want to be like this anymore!

I can't really exercise because of pain, or I can, but then I can't do anything for days or weeks because I've sent myself into a fibro-relapse, and can't work.  I love my work, I can't not work for obvious reasons, but I need to lose weight.  

I've gone back to weight watchers numerous times, foolishly signed myself up for a 5 day a week bootcamp, that sent me into said relapse, I tried looking into weight loss surgery, but it's too expensive to pay for myself, and I don't qualify as I DON'T HAVE DIABETES YET. Yes, I was told that. 

My family doctor has said she will support me however she can, doing a medically supervised diet, with walking, yoga or swimming as tolerated, plus having access to her nurses whenever I need them. I haven't taken her up on that offer yet, not sure why, but this should be my next starting point.

For now, I'm just going to try to make a decision about everything I eat, instead of just eating.  And maybe drinking more than just coffee... Hey Eva!  Have you heard that you can get water pumped right into your kitchen?! 

Sunday, January 24, 2016

37 years young.

I've been paying better attention to what goes into my mouth the past 3 weeks.  I'm down 2.9 lbs so far this month.  Which I'm glad I got a head start on, being this past week we celebrated mine and my daughters birthdays!  I've never stayed on plan for birthdays through my first loss, and I didn't this week either.  Birthdays are meant to be celebrated.  And for us, that includes food!  So I'm not counting on a loss this week, but that's ok.

DH signed up for a gym membership this week, now that we know he's coming home for good in February!  He was able to get a posting an hours drive away instead of  way up north!  We went to the gym together on Friday and have another gym date planned for tomorrow!  He's a great motivator for me, and pushes me hard at the gym.  I love it!  He has decided he wants to tone up and thin out!  Although I love him anyway he comes, it'd be nice to have a washboard to do my delicates on. *wink*

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

In with the old...

The past year has been a tough one. But amazingly mundane at the same time. 

We started by living apart while my husband travelled for work.
I started having severe pain issues and my health started to decline.
I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain Syndrome.
We moved again into our dream house (that needs work).
We went through financial hardship when my husband got laid off. 
I had to pick up a second job to make ends meet.  
He found a good job, but had to leave again.  
Now we're paying for two households.

Ahh.  Enough of that. 

So, The good things that have happened. 

We have two wonderful, healthy girls. I have a diagnosis, with meds that actually help. 
I have two amazing jobs. 
My husband and I are still deliriously in love. 
With him home not working, he got to spend the summer home with his girls in this amazing place we call home. In our own in ground pool. 
We live in the most beautiful place on earth, The Okanagan Valley.
We have a dream house that we can fix up the way we want.
We have a financial plan.
My husband finally has his dream job and has now done over half of his stint away from home.
My mental health is much better and I'm better than I've been in years.

And so much more.

Life is nowhere near the same. 

I've gained back all but 10 pounds of what I lost "before". And instead of dwelling on the fact that I've gained so much, I'm working on letting that go and start again. 

My health isn't the same and my mental health is different than before, so I need a new plan.  One day at a time.  I can't go gangbusters, but every little bit will add up.

I've lost count how many times I've restarted Weight Watchers over the past couple of years and I don't know why I keep struggling with that, with the exception that I don't have my sisters here to attend with me. I really want to start again, I KNOW the program works for me, I just need to stick to it!  

I know it's cliché, but isn't that the case with anyone with weight to lose?  I have a plan for 2016...

Sunday, July 19, 2015

It's been a long time...

I'd love to say that I've been working on losing weight since my last post, but, nope.  Sorry. 

In the past year and a half, maybe two years, I've not been able to get my shit together long enough to make a dent in losing what I've gained.  Actually, I've been pretty consistently gaining over that time.  My highest weight (since losing it all) was a couple of weeks ago, 231 lbs at Weight Watchers.  Which isn't all bad, I've been going to Weight Watchers since May 13th.  I lost 5 lbs the first month, then had family visiting from back home and gained it all back in two weeks, now I'm working on getting that gain off again.  I'm down an overall of 1.6 lbs since my recommit!  Lol!

I have to admit, I wasn't really on track for most of June.  Although having gone to the same meeting throughout, I'm finally starting to feel like I'm a part of a weight loss community again!  Which I can honestly say I haven't felt in over a year. 

Just this past meeting on Saturday, it really felt like I was part of the group.  People remember my name now, I'm starting to get to know a few, the leader is my age, and that helps, and I'm participating.  I finally feel like I might just be able to stay on it this time. 

This particular group meets on Saturday mornings, has a facebook group and really supports each other.  Since moving across country I've not had the support of a group and I think that has been a big part of my gains.  My husband is a great support, but we are also each others enablers.  I need that outside pressure to keep me going.

I'd love to say I'm back on track, and losing again, but of course, I've had so many false starts and have said this to you countless times, lol! 


I'm going to the meetings.

My brain is finally switched back on and when I'm looking for something to eat, on plan foods are my first thought. 

One big reason I think I'll stay on plan this time...

My health.

I have chronic pain, the doctor threw out the term Fibromyalgia, which I hate, but whatever.  My current medication regimen is no longer working or possible.  I refuse to take Narcotics, and theres really not much out there thats covered by my drug plan. 


In researching ways to help my chronic pain I stumbled upon the anti-inflammatory diet.  Pretty much whole foods, avoid processed anything, white flours etc.. Eat healthy, bottom line.  Huh.  Fancy that.

Something switched in my brain.  My diet can help me feel normal.  Deal.

It's too soon to tell, it's only been a week and a half but now that my brain see's processed food as a danger, making healthy choices has been easy. 

I'll keep you posted.