Giving up.

Not on weight loss, but on pressuring myself to lose weight by a certain date.  I'm in a wedding in 6 weeks and have a dress, but I was hoping to lose enough weight by then to have it taken in.  It does do up.  Although another 5-10 lbs would make it fit just that much better.  Unfortunately, since I've had the pressure on, I've had the worst month for weight loss yet!  Only 3 pounds lost this month, total.

So I've decided it's ok that it's a tad bit tight.  I've been tracking, 91 days straight in my 100 day tracking challenge I might add, but have only half-assed been on plan.  I just need to get back to the mindset of being healthy and getting to goal when I get to goal.  No pressure.

I've gone back to week one on Weight Watchers and am planning my days food wise, making sure I get in all the good health guidelines.  It seems to be helping, I redeemed myself for the crap weekend I had and I'm down one pound this week for a total of 68.8 pounds lost!

I was hoping to be down 75 lbs by my one year, October 11th, but again, there's that time goal again!  Not going to happen!  Unless by some miracle I can lose 6.2 lbs in the next 2 weeks.  Right!

I am so insanely proud of myself though for losing the 68.8 pounds I have :)

In meeting this evening, I mentioned wanting to fit into this dress better and that I was putting too much pressure on myself.  After the meeting one of the ladies stopped me in the grocery store telling me she says I'll be so proud of myself that day in my size 22 16 bridesmaid dress!  I really do love these weight watcher meetings and the people who are there, such an amazing support system!  As is my on line family in the 100+ pounds to lose message board on weightwatchers.ca.  I have to say, I wouldn't be where I am if it weren't for the support this program offers!