Highs and lows

I had one of those days today

First off I didn't sleep well. I had a nightmare. My hubby and I and the kids were in a warehouse type store Christmas shopping. We were walking out and out of the corner of my eye I saw a man take Lara's (my oldest) hand. Tom grabbed her and I turned round and realized Zaryah was missing. I woke up shortly after that. I woke at 2:30 and needed to distract myself from bad thoughts (you know where your mind goes after dreams like these!) and I didn't eat back to sleep for an hour!  Then I woke again at 4:30 to pee, then again at 6:15 for no reason, then I managed to go back to sleep until my alarm woke me up at 6:45.

Work was busy but good. I only have 2.5 more shifts until I'm off for my surgery and between trying to fit patients in before I go and trying to organize everything and tie up loose ends, I don't have a lot of time to dawdle!

We went out for lunch today on the doctors tab for staff appreciation day!  Out for sushi!  Now I've never been a fan of sushi. Well, I had one piece at the mandarin a couple of years ago and it was gross. So I figured it wasn't for me.

My husband loves sushi, as do many of my family. So I really wanted to give it another try (that and it's really low in points!  What a perfect opportunity!  I had no idea what I was doing. Thankfully one of our doctors took over and ordered a crap load of different things!  I tried pretty much everything, all except the ones with avocado, I know I'm not a fan of avocado!  Believe it or not I really enjoyed it!  My favourites were cooked eel teriyaki and sushi pizza with raw salmon on it!

It's safe to say I like it now. My hubby will be very happy!

I had a not so great visit with my mom tonight. She's been moved to "Complex continuing care". Where my Dad was for 12 years. Yesterday she was able to hold a conversation with me. Today, she was more in her hallucinations than she was in the real world. It's hard watching her come and go like that. We can only pray that the fact that the bad days are getting further apart is a promise that she'll come back to us eventually.

After getting home, we were able to have a Skype visit with Tom!  So that made me feel better. I miss him greatly and I can hardly wait until he gets back!  Only 4 more sleeps!

Even with all that's groin on, I'm still on plan. My great loss on Tuesday really kicked my butt!  Here's to a quick loss of the last 6 pounds!